Merry Christmas. While you enjoy your gifts, I'd like to state my mind. I'm sure you've heard hundreds of these "True meaning of Christmas" stories. If you're a humble christain, same as I, I'm sure you'll agree. If you're anti-religion and have better things to worry about (like playing games made from minerals on the earth God gave you) than just erase this, don't even bother.

Simply, I put it as such: we revolve this holiday around gifts, not recognizing the greatest gift already given to us. A baby, born of god to be the savior of our race. Born a king, not of yells and commands, but of crying and purity. Personally, I feel guilty getting gifts on Christmas. But of this world of greed and demand, receiving more than giving, and need for material things. We have hardened our hearts, and turned up our new music so loud, that we have drowned out the soft, gentle sound of a little baby, crying in it's manger.

I leave you now to continue your day, in hopes that what I said has plucked even the smallest of your heart strings. Enjoy this day. Find some time to go outside, feel and see the beauty of the sunlight, and think about
who's sending it down to you.

In the name of our lord, Jesus Christ, Amen.

dj and i had bond fire today. we burned lots of spare wood. i even burned my homemade cloud sword [link]
after that video, i accidently got to close to the fire with some gas and nearly blew myself up.

on due of a number of problems (financial, allergies, patience. ect) we have given mika back to ivar. i'm quite sad about it, but what must be, must be. sorry, i haven't been on recently, but i've been busy.

dj's going to live with us soon. he's fixing our computer, so i'm on his laptop. today we're going up to downers to say hello to some people.i've started wearing suits. due to some complications, we'll be getting rid of mika. i've returned to going to church. there's finals next week. that's pretty much bringing everyone up to date.

i'm done. i'm done with role playing, manga, anime, and cosplaying. it's all just a waste of time and money.so i'm leaving it all behind.

i'm getting rid of all my anime/manga stuff. i'm not gopnna kill myself, so don't worry. i just don't like it. manga and anime are just dumb as far as i can see. you begin to like it, then you believe it. i know quite a few people who may doubt this, and may find this a shock, but just take a deep breath, okay? here we go: it's not real! there is no deathnote, no shinigami. if there was, how come we never knew until the series came out? i have a few friends who say that these charecters and monsters and what not are real. if you have that same thought, i'll make a bet with you. i collect obituaries that mention drunk driving, drugs, murder, crazy kids doing dumb stunts. you look for death caused by magic swords, demons, fire spells, dragons, and after a month, let's see who has more.

cosplay is another thing i can't stand. you make a character who is an outcast, but still accepted into a group of friends that never let you down. you go on adventures and fight fierce battles, then fall in love and have there never be any problems. they you walk of into some beautiful fantasy forest. then you stop roleplaying and see just the opposite. you're an outcast and not excepted, not even by your friends cause most could give a shit less what happened to you. you go on a tiny 'adventure' and find yourself in a police station. you fight a fierce battle and become paralized. you fall in love, but have never ending fighting. finaly you want to walk off into a beautiful forest, but the one near you is being torn down to make a walmart.

as for cosplay, it's just wasted money on usless clothes. i'm selling for money i can use to buy something i'll actually wear.


sorry if i have offended you or your beliefs, but it's just what i've had to say for a while.